Sometimes, there are things that we know we have to let go gradually. Yet, we can't afford to do so because we've been holding on too long. It's never good to get too attached to people or things, and I would add one more to the list "pets"
I'm a cat person. I can never stand still whenever I see a cat. The sound of their purr is very pleasing for me. I myself have six cats at home. And of course, there is this cat -- my favorite. The closest one to my heart as he always sleeps next to me in my arms.
Don't be surprised when I tell you he is a very well-mannered boy. Despite his serious illness, he would still walk to the bathroom to pee and poo. But, at the same time he has this
catitude. Every morning between 6 - 7 AM, he would meow until I wake up and feed him. If I just close my eyes again, he would jump on my bed, step forward then scratch my chin to wake me up. He doesn't like when I dance in front of him, especially wearing shorts. He would just bite my ankle, knee or thigh, whichever is reachable from where he is.
He was born on Thursday 31st October, 2002 and is now over n 9 years old. If he were a human boy, he would still be in his childhood. But the average life span of male indoor cats being 12 - 14 years, he's pretty much an old cat now. Lately, he's been suffering from various respiratory tract problems and I've been sending him to the clinic almost every day for the past 3-4 months. The vet said there are complications with his diseases. When one problem goes down, another came up. In short, his immune system or internal defense mechanism has been deteriorating and therefore keeps getting one sickness after another. Most of the time, he would just bounce back. He's been fighting until now.
One thing I know, he won't be there for long.
But, I keep whispering him to hang in there.
I keep nursing him ... the best way I know how.
I keep telling him and myself that we will fight this together.
Not everything is replaceable. No living thing is.
I could have another cat. But none will ever have the same personality like his, the same bonding we've built in-between, or the same manners.
I know it's about time to let go .......
I just can't. Not yet. No amount of time will ever make me ready.
Cause I've been holding on ...... way too long.
Comments (8)
I'm sorry. I really hope he can stay longer with you in a healthier state.
aww :( I'm sorry to hear about your little guy. My cat's 9 years old too.. she'll actually be 10 on Valentines day. I would have a hard time letting go too. She's like my baby.
@simplysuzu - Thanks kyal.
@LillyVRose - Thank you. I'm glad that you could relate my feelings.
I felt sad just reading your blog although i've never had a pet of my own.
I hope he'll stick around longer with you, in good health.
@lulu174 - Thank you Wah Wah. All I've been wishing is another '24 hrs' ..... and another 24 hrs ..
I don't see anything wrong with holding on to someone you love....I think it's great!
@mlbncsga - Hmm. I guess you just read my last few sentences.
@chitsuelay - nope, I read the whole of it...My dog is 14 and has similar issues so I understood what you were saying.